Sometimes i just want to fucking scream “I’M CHEATING ON YOU.”

but i think it would kill you

and besides

we only have a few months left. i might as well just go along with the illusion, for your sake. you never have to know

oh and the funny thing is, while you’ve been trying to make up your mind about what you want from me & who the fuck you really are, ive been having an amazing time with my boyfriend. it’s like, every stress you put on me and my guilt was killing us, and then once i decided i couldnt do it anymore, we went back to happy & normal. this is how things should be. i know i’ll have to tell him soon that i made a huge mistake, and he’s done the same to me before & we’ve always been able to work it out and forgive.

i cant wait to go up to you tomorrow & ask how old your kids are.

Everything bad that happens to me is a result of my own cuntish ways

myfatherwillhearabouthis asked: Happy Valentine's Day!!!

you too<3

today, while texting the guy i like, we sent each other pictures of ourselves

he stopped replying after that..

LOL MY LIFE

found out the guy i really like has fucking kids.

thanks so much for telling me, after what, a couple weeks of messing around with me?

i love how i had to find out from our mutual friend. thats cool. he said “Yeah i was in his car one day, and i noticed he had car seats. And he goes ‘yeah, those are for my twins.’” you’re 20 and you have twins. bet you 20 bucks he would have never told me.

this explains so much, how we never have much time to hang out, how you always see busy or distracted, how you’re always stressed out about money & never want to go back to your place.

oh and who’s their mom? for all i know, you’re married. i made a really good decision ending things with you. i knew something was off. just how you acted & everything. I was hesitant, and ive been thinking about how much i actually do like you, but this just solidifies it.

i know im a total hypocrite. i hid something big from you too. but not as big as having children.. i’m 17. obviously you werent looking for anything serious, and now i can be sure of that. no parent wants a serious relationship with someone who’s still a kid.

the reason we’re fighting so much isn’t because you’re a bad boyfriend, or unthoughtful, or anything else I’ve been claiming.

it’s because im a horrible fucking person and i cant look you in the eyes without feeling like crying. we’re fighting because i’m trying to justify what i did. and i can’t. I did something wrong and I have no idea how to tell you.

i love you. i was just lost and frustrated because i never get to spend time with you anymore and all we were doing was fighting.

but if i told you that i kissed him and that he kissed me back, you would be so heartbroken. you would never see me as whole again.

im so fucking sorry

fuck valentines day

do you know how long it takes to shave a heart into your pubes?

fucking forever, thats how long

im officially cheating on my boyfriend

i dont know what to do now

There are times I can tell, just by looking at a girl, that she’s been naked on the internet somewhere.